Our Family's Journey

On February 11-2014. I went into the hospital thinking I had an ulcer.I thought I would be put out and have a simple EGD (scope) done. Then have my meds upped or changed. No big deal right. While Roy and I were waiting to go home the Dr.came in and told us that he was concerned.Two days later I was back in for a colonoscopy and right before I was put out I was told that yes indeed it was cancer.Again there Roy and I were waiting to go home and the Dr.came in and spent quiet abit of time with us.5 cn.. I will loose my stomach and will be on a feeding tube for the rest of my life..then came CAT scan.MRI.PET scans blood work..all showed the cancer in my stomach and just a little blurry thing in my intestines. That was nothing to worry about...so I go into the hospital for surgery on March 3-2014..At this time I had 3different Dr.s telling me different locations of where the cancer was in my stomach. One said it was at the top of my stomach. Which meant I would loose my whole stomach. Then the next said that it was in the lower part which meant I would loose only part of my stomach. That would've been the best case. Then the last one said that it was all over my stomach. So when I was waking up I asked if I had a feeding tube.when I was told"Yes"I knew that it wasn't good.At that time I just shanked deeper into my bed. I know I asked another question and was told that my family were in my room waiting for me. As I was wheeled into my room the first thing I saw was my 3girls faces,then my poor husbands face. I knew it wasn't good news. The surgeon opened me up and all he saw was small"pods" "seeds"oh I don't remember what all he called them. He said that it looks like someone poured a bunch of sand all over everything and everywhere. I have stage 4Adenocarcinoma of the stomach. Gastrointestinal cancer. My only hope is to undergo Chemotherapy. Without treatment I will be gone within 1year. With treatment. We just don't know. We or I have decided to participate in a clinical trial. I know there is no hope of me beating this but maybe just maybe this trial will come up with something that can help you or someone else. I have to keep positive that the chemotherapy will work. I have been told that if it does in the beginning there WILL come a day when it will stop. At that time I will be able to meet my and your Savior Jesus Christ. Our Heavenly Father and all of my loved ones that have already passed on. Well I know this has been a long read but I wanted to do this blog to answer any questions you may have about the surgery,why I went to the Dr.in the first place. I plan on posting some of the tender mercy that I have felt. The out pouring of love..what it is like to not be able to eat. And only getting nutrition from a feeding tube. And some of the funny things that has happened and I am sure there is a whole lot of laughter still to come